There is an ends to my means ...

This exhausted, full tilt, some would say detrimental behavior has a purpose for me. There is a reason for these actions, for this intensity that is my light at the end of the tunnel and my motivation to continue. The reason I have one nearly full time job and one part time job on top of school, the reason I am doing two senior thesis in one semester, the reason I am barrelling through all of my immigration red tape - I want the life I deserve to have.

By March of 2007 I want to have a nice apartment, a nice full time job, a nice wardrobe, a nice vacation planned, a nice photo album of a wonderful honeymoon, a nice marriage, and simply a nice life. I don't want fantastic or opulent - just nice. I am working my tail off and making extreme plans because I want a nice life. I am saving every penny I can so that when Levi and I get back to Australia we have the funds to pay first, last, and security on a nice apartment. So that we can get clean and new furniture and a big bed. So that we can have all the utilities installed at once and get high speed internet so I can stay connected to my family. I want a life that while maybe not flush with money, is secure and comfortable.

For a nice life, I can go without sleep for 5 months.