Work widdle work work ...

So if I didn't already mention I work at a library, the College library - so its quiet, my schedule fits in around my classes, and its close to my building. But because its so lax, I have plenty of time to think and ponder and stress.

The car being broken is upsetting and debilitating. I am not sleeping well because I can't leave campus, I haven't gone for a drive up to the blue ridge mountains yet to clear my head. I haven't gone to study in the local park or had a chance to visit friends in the region. This weekend is the Ball, either you ridicule it or you look forward to it all year - unfortunately for my sanity I fall in the latter category. But I'm not going, I have 5 options of shoes I could have left back home and a dress that I won't find any other sane reason to wear. Worse yet - that means that I may not see Levi for another month, if even then - thats if the car ever gets fixed. Considering the longest we have been apart in the last 2 years is 6 days (and that only happened once) - its frustrating to say the least.

My integration back into the school social structure is more unbalanced than I imagined. Don't think me a fool - I did not expect everyone to sit on their hands and wait for my return, or even to reserve my place in their circles - but I am finding that I have to reestablish the heirarchy within my social circles to make room for myself again - a taxing process.

Other than the general "culture shock" school is the same, quizzes, tests, essays and eventual exams. It still hasn't snowed and I am not getting my hopes up that I will go sledding this year at all.

This forum is mine to vent fairly anonymously - for whatever reason, its great procrastination.